Monday, February 13, 2006
how i wish people could stop fcuking up my life .
first , snyo called . (shirleen heng , stop asking me wtf is tat , its singapore national youth orch . LAST TIME IM TELLING YOU !) during the audition last yr i played violin larhs . den they say violin alot le , wan me change ta viola . i say okay . then they give me 6months ta learn , den rejoin larhs . now they're telling me they wan me come THIS WK . no audition , cos they have confidence in my playing . i was like , thanks fer the compliment , but i dont really think im ready yet . then they didn't fcuking care , and said i HAD to come , cos they were lacking in people .
fcuk larhs , im already stressed up about so many things le can . look , i can even make a list out of it :
1) mother wants me to take IP and go to jc next yr .
2) viola grade 7 .
3) violin diploma . (performance ?!)
4) fcuking studies .
like HELLO . anyone of these problems are enough to kill me larhs , dont say all of them . so i called them back , told the secetary i WOULDNT , and COULDNT join snyo until the least 2 weeks later . then i slammed down the phone and fcuking started to cry .
of cos , another reason i dont wanna join is because i wouldnt have enough time to go out , cos of practices , PLUS , i cant go yhope on sat . wahlao .. told my dad , he gave me this lecture about last time when he was young , then he also wanted to join the SSO , budden his standard wasnt good enough , now i was given the chance , then i dowan join . then wad it was a waste of opportunity , wants me to live out his dreams . like HUH .
fcuk , not that im not sensitive and that i dont wanna be filial , budden , I HAVE MY OWN FCUKING LIFE . stress i can take , but this is seriously too much . tell you , a tiny lil bit more stress , and i'll crack .
somehow , i think my password's been leaked out by dunnoe who . so the assholes who got into my blog by asking the traitor , please kindly piss back to your own planet . don't think i dunnoe who you are . tag my board and say im a bitch , I DARE YOU , and see what i'll do . i'll track down your IP add , call singtel or whatever shit your subscriber is , and TRACK down your home add . i'll hunt you down i tell you . when i find you , i'll make sure im carrying 10 parrangs and 20 guns .
ahhh . feel much better after vending my anger .
6:34 PM
music is my life
